These days I am struggling to stay positive and grateful for everything that God has done for me. I have been feeling some pain in the lower- left side of my chest. This apparently is caused as a side effect of the loss of part of my lung, chemo and radiation. I have been needing more medicine and exams than I would like, so my frustrations have grown.
Today however while I was in church I realized that it is my third year anniversary of being cancer free. I can not say that I completely forgot the frustrations that have been going through my head, but it did help me remember that I love a powerful and faithful God.
I have always believed there is a purpose in life. A personal and individual purpose for each child of God. Sometimes when my head is clouded by the challenges that we have I forget about the bigger picture. It is amazing though, that even if we forget, if we walk away, if we fall behind He will never forget about me or let me walk away.
“And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.” Philippians 1:6
When I started my cancer journey I did not understand that I have a life commitment with it, but I do now. My struggle, that has also been the work of God to shape my character and therefore my blessing, is not over. Even when I felt like I was done with Him, He has loved me too much to be done with me and let me drown on my self pity, my hopeless or on my shame.
I just pray that as I continue to take day by day with its blessings and its challenges, He continues to surround me with kindness, peace, love and specially HIS GRACE.